Another Night Alone

I don't know how much longer I can cope with being alone all the time...


I need to find an escape. I think I really am going to start to having running be that escape (and possibly yoga too)


Rach

Thinking.....

When I am alone my thoughts being to take to places I have already been. To memories that I never want to forget because they bring a smile to my face. These places are where I long to be again, where I know I have something to look back on and smile. Happiness is what I want. Sometimes that is the hardest to find, in the smallest things happiness can be found. To find the happiness that follows you from day to day is what I think everyone wants.

Music is something that takes me back to the happiness I have once had. Music is one of my escapes. Finding that song that can just explain the way you are feeling at that one moment. Taking that one moment in time and transporting you to a different place. Taking your emotions out of your body to allow you to express then. The lyrics aren't necessarily want talks to you but the beat of the song.


more thoughts to come later,
Rach

Just Another Friday Night

So its a Friday night, don't have any plans. I'll probably do some studying (i know its lame to do on a Friday night). I went to my last AEP class today, stupid. They just kept talking about how to prevent alcoholism. Since I don't abuse alcohol and don't plan on it, since i don't drink a lot. It was a big waste of my time. But since I have had to do this whole AEP program I don' really want to drink until I turn 21 so that I don't have to worry about getting into trouble again.


I have completed my first week of my junior year. This semester I am taking 19 credit hours. This is going to be a really tough semester, I just need to keep focused and organized on everything I need to do. Since this semester is the hardest I have taken so far, I put in my two weeks notice at work. It is kinda sad since I have made some friends there and I don't to be left out of their plans just because I won't be at work to find out what those plans are.

Well there is the first of many more shenanigans to come,
Rach